Thursday, September 16, 2010

Where have all the good poets gone?

In one of my classes, Tapestry of Grace, I had to read some poems this week from the Norton Anthology of Western Literature.  These poems are full of beautiful lyricism and fabulous imagery, and I had to share with you my favorite.

Summer (Translated from the Hebrew by William M. Davis)

The earth, like a girl, sipped the rains
Of winter past, and those the ministering clouds distilled
Or perhaps, like a secluded bride in winter
Whose soul longs for the coming of love's time
She waited, and sought the season ripe for love
Till summer came, and calmed her anxious heart
Wearing golden tunics and white embroidered flax.
Like a girl who delights in her finery and raiment,
Every day she renews the grace of her embroiderers
And provides all her neighbors with new garments.
Every day she changes the colors of her fields
Now with strings of pearls, now with emeralds or rubies, 
Offering her meadows now white or green or gold
Or blushing like the sweetheart kissing her beloved.
Her trellises display such gorgeous glowers
It seems as if she stole the stars from heaven.  
Here is paradise, whose sheltered buds are clustered
Among the vines, kindled with blushes that incite to love.
The grapes are cold as snow in the hand of him who plucks them.
But in his entrails, they burn as hot as fire.
From the whirling cask, the wine, like the sun, is rising.  
And we shall bring our onyx cups to pour it.
In the love of wine we shall stroll beneath the bowers
Around the garden, and smile with tears of rain, 
Bright with shining drops spilled by the clouds
That scatter round like strings of pearls.
She finds joy in the song of the swallow, and in the songs of the vintagers,
An in cooing pigeons tamed by love,
She twitters in the branches, as the maiden sings
Behind her zither, swaying as she dances.
My soul is attentive to the breeze of the dawn,
For it fondles the breath of my beloved. 
A wanton breeze it is, that steals the scent of myrtles
To waft it off to lovers apart.
The heads of the myrtles rise and nod in turn
While the tremulous fronds of the palm tree
Seem to applaud the singing of the birds.


Why does no one write this way anymore?  It saddens the heart.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I don't make this stuff up

Sup, y'all.

It's 9:30 pm, and I think I'll head off to bed soon.  Just thought I'd go ahead and check in since I don't think I'll be able to blog tomorrow, but we'll see.

Last night, I went to bed and my knee was a little sore, but I figured that was just from all the walking I've been doing.  So, when I woke up this morning, I was not excited to notice that me knee was still sore.  Luckily, though, it was bearable.  I sat down to do some schoolwork, and around 9:30 I got up to hug my mom as she walked out the door to go check out the outlet mall.  I noticed that, uh, I couldn't really walk.

I texted mom a bit later asking what I should do, and she told me to take a motrin and maybe ice it.  I got up, took the motrin, and fashioned an ice-pack that would stay on my knee using a dish towel and a rubberband.  It was very fashionable.

The ice pack in the towel secured around my knee stayed on!  It was just one of those plastic square things that you keep in the freezer, and it was placed on the back of my knee.  So I happily began to walk back to my desk, aka our breakfast room table.

Well.

You know how if someone kicks the back of your leg, around your knee, you kind of fall forward?

WELL.

Apparently the same thing happens if you put something big, square, and hard behind your knee and then try to walk.  I took one step, and fell down.

Come on!  After laughing for a moment at how silly I knew I looked, I adjusted my gait.  I then went on to do more school work, because I'm nothing if not entirely studious.

Well.

I was having trouble concentrating, but managed to push through a bunch of reading and some note taking and some pyramid making.  (Geometry, aka, arts and crafts.  Which I've never been good at.)

Mom got home as I was frustratedly trying to even out my scale model of a real pyramid.  I was getting more frustrated then was probably appropriate.  Then I was having trouble turning in some homework on my computer, and I couldn't find my homework assignment for another class on my computer.  So, naturally, I started crying.

Mama, understandably, was rather confused by my response to the situation, and came over to my work space to give me a hug.  She kind of looked at me funny and asked if I was hot.

"Uh, well, that wasn't the first thing on my mind, but yeah I guess I kind of am."

"Well, I'm pretty sure you're running a fever."

oh.

OH.

Well that explains everything, except the knee.  I'm sick!  I'm so glad to hear that I'm not just going crazy.

Actually, on second thought, I am going crazy, but that's been on going for 16 years, so that's off topic.

So, then, mom had to go to a hair appointment, and the electrician and mosquito screen (for our windows) guys came.  And our landlord and his slightly intimidating mother.  And I had to try to deal with them.

I don't speak Italian, in case you forgot.  My dad was supposed to be there, but he was held up at work.  (It's been a busy day here today.)  So that was really fun.

In a nerve-wracking, sorry-if-I-throw-up-on-your-shoes-and-then-cry-on-your-nice-new-jacket kind of way.  Luckily, I managed to push through, and Dad got home to finish with the proceedings.

I made it into my online class, and when that was done, I was done.  I plopped on the sofa, grabbed my Kindle, read two pages, and fell asleep.  I woke up at 7:30 (not kidding) and felt nauseated, yet hungry.  I didn't think I could stomach anything heavy, so I decided against the chicken my mom made.  I had, instead, half a sleeve of Ritz crackers, a string cheese, and later, a bagel.

I eat like a three year old.  Don't judge me.

Now, I'm going to bed.  I have already told my parents that if my leg hurts like this tomorrow, I'm going to the hospital.  I don't even know if I was joking.  But I am really tired of all the limping.

Good night.

Apiphobia's the name, COMPLETE AND UTTER TERROR is the game.



















I'm sitting at my desk, aka our breakfast room table, and having a quick snack break.  I thought I'd drop in and apologize for a grave error I have made in my life.

I have never believed in phobias.

I always sort of thought that phobias were simply had by people who just really don't have much to 'em.  You know... hypochondriacs, silly geese, and the like. And you know what?

I was so wrong.


Why the sudden change of heart, you ask?  Because I've quite literally, no joke, developed a phobia.

Of BEES.

The little buggers, or any other stinger-bug like wasps and yellow jackets, scare the jeepers out of me.  If one gets near me (and, several people have noted they actually follow me around) I flip out.  I. Must. Run.

Mom always calmly tells me to stand still, and they won't bother me... but to no avail.  Something triggers in me and I must flee the scene, which turns into me looking like an idiot in front of whoever's watching.  My heart pounds wildly, and I dance around trying to make sure it doesn't. touch. me.  If I see one land on a person, I step back and feel the need to warn them, though I try to be calm.  I lose control of my body and it generally just takes off in the opposite direction of said stinger-creature.  My mouth goes dry, I shake, and at times, I've been known to squeal.  RF thinks it's funny, because it kind of is.  After the fact, I realize what a silly goose I am.  But all the while, while I convince myself it's irrational, my eyes are wide open.  Looking for bees.

So, in a nutshell, I'm a weirdo.

Thank you.  Have a bee-free day.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

The Boulevard of Broken... Ancient Structures?

I'm a bad person.

This blog thing.  Well.  I'm not very great at it, apparently.  I just am far too slow.  But, I've finally sat down with some time to write!

Let's start with Saturday.  Pancakes.  My book.  Pajamas.  A nap... at 12 pm.  Because of said pancakes.

That pretty much sums it up.  You may be wondering "Why art thou so impossibly lazy?"  Well!  Be not disheartened!  I wasn't the only one.  Mom and I both rested, while dad did some studying.  But our excuse explanation is that we wanted to be well rested for Sunday.

"Why," you ask, "Would one rest to be well rested on Sunday which is the day of rest?"

This particular Sunday, dear readers, was not restful.  I woke at 6 (I'M SORRY, WHAT?) and then showered, put on jeans, a t-shirt, and tennis shoes.  This does not sound like the Caroline you know, does it?  I know.  It even surprised me.

Moving on, we left to take the Subway to Piramide (named, aptly, for the large pyramid outside of the station) and met other people from my dad's college.  My buddy, RF, waved a chocolate croissant in my face as I sipped my dainty cappucino, and then we set off.

We set off.  On a twelve mile walk.

I was fresh as a daisy for the first while.  We saw some really cool things!  Firstly, we saw the walls of Rome.  They were crumbly and broken, yet somehow still magnificent.  We saw an aqueduct, and the numbers for how much water those provided to Rome a DAY are mind-blowing.  Some million gallons or so.  It's truly unbelievable. Now, my explanations are going to be a little stunted because I seriously couldn't hear a thing the tour guide said.  (And I still can't find my camera cord, so go here for pictures.  It's my mom's Rome blog.)

We went to San Giovanni in Laterano, one of the most famous churches in Italy.  It was unbelievably gorgeous on the inside, and I think that that beauty is something that churches today really miss.  Amazing churches are a lost art, and it's quite sad.

We saw a set of steps, Scala Santa, inside a little building.  It is said that Jesus walked these stairs on the way to be judged by Pontius Pilate.  Now, though they are marble, they are covered by wood because mere mortals are not allowed to walk on the sacred steps.  The faithful Catholics climb these stairs, and only do so on their knees.  It seems rather moralistic to me, and I don't believe that we should literally worship the ground that Jesus walked on, but simply worship him for what he did.  I see how, if those really are the steps he walked on, that could be a really cool and amazing thing, but I don't believe that they have healing or forgiving powers, for they are in fact, simple steps of marble.

I chugged a gatorade and ate some pringles, and we were on our way again.  We saw more things than I could explain here.

It was, in fact, 12 miles.

We ate lunch at the British Embassy, and then continued.  By the end of the day, my feet were covered in blisters and I was pretty much ready to crash and/or die.

When we returned home, I showered, my sweet mama rubbed my feet, and we gathered around the laptop for some good old Friday Night Lights.  That's some good stuff right thar.

Monday, we went to Italian class and I did schoolwork.

Today was another walk!  This one was far more casual, though.  We went by the Circus Maximus, several Piazzas, and the Jewish quarter (which was my favorite part.)  It wasn't as long, and it was just the spouses club.  They let me hang with them because I'm really great.

It has nothing to do the fact that they feel sorry for me.  I'm sure of it.

Oh I'm kidding. ;)  It's just because I'm homeschooled and I don't bug 'em too much.

Now, I'm going to go read because I think if I try to walk another step, my calves are going to revolt and tear themselves from my legs, so goodnight, dear readers.

Buona notte!

Monday, September 13, 2010

A Haiku. Just for You.

I'll write a post soon
For now, I do my homework
And rub my poor feet.  


(I walked 12 miles yesterday.  Stand by for a long-winded little post.)

Buona Mattina, e nel caso io non ti vedo, buona pomeriggio, buona sera, e buona notte.

If you can guess what (or at least movie of origin) that quote is up thar that I put into Italian, you get a gold star.  No seriously.  A gold star.  Just. for. you.

(And if my quote has Italian grammatical errors, don't be surprised.)

(I'm only human)

(Nothing but a little girl.)

(Just a wee lass.)

(And google translate can be rather poop-y.)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

The Love I've Been Given

The lights have gone down in my room
Enclosing my soul is the fear of my doom.

I can't see your face like I need to
All the sins in my heart seep right through.

The tears down my cheek are burning
And all I can know is of yearning.

It's so very clear that I need you,
So why is it that I can't hear you?

I open the book and pore over the pages,
My soul and my heart break free from their cages!

A light turns on that some can not see,
So why, oh god, did you choose me?

I'm broken, unworthy, and constantly failing,
Not walking right beside you, I feel I'm only trailing.

Yet you waited down the path and held out your hand,
In the midst of this sinning, dry, weary land.

My heart begins to sing a new song
As you continue to love me like you have all along.

I've never seen it so clearly before,
And now I simply can see nothing more.

My cry is now only the tears of my gladness,
I can't even remember where I left all my sadness!

I may stumble, I'll still fall, but I have been forgive.
You wait for me still, oh the grace I've been given!

You've cast out my demons and taken my heart,
You've washed it and tamed it, you gave it a part.

You gave it a part in your magnificent story,
And soon, very soon, you'll take me to glory.


Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Espresso, homeschool, and music, oh my!

Hey.

So it's been a while.

I'm just surprised I didn't get emails from friends asking me if I died!  (It happens.)

I just felt the need to step away for a couple days.  My real, legit school started this week, and Mama and I have been hitting the NATO college for a lot of events and lectures, Italian classes, and the like quite a bit lately.  It's pretty busy around here!

Yesterday, while my mom was at a spouses' coffee in the bar at the college (Read: bar in Italy is not like bar in America, fyi.  It's coffee.  Cafe.  Think Starbucks, but cheaper.  Way, way, way cheaper.) I went to the gym.  Ran the treadmill, lifted, used some of the machines, and did push-ups and lunges.  I then proceeded to feel like jell-o for a couple of hours.

I cooled off and changed into nice clothes. (the "man" won't let you wear gym/casual clothes in the college, though honestly, I don't really even know who the "man" actually is when it comes to the college.  But I digress.  I digress quite often.)  I tip-toed over to the library where it was cool.

If you were wondering why I tip-toed, it's because my ridiculously cute gladiator sandals (not a tourist schtick. They really are "in" here.) are apparently equally ridiculously squeaky on the floor in the college.  I might as well have been wearing a cowbell.

I read some schoolbooks, and then squeaked over to the bar.  (Read:  NOT AN ACTUAL BAR.)  I went up to the barista, and said "Un espresso, per favore."  I figured I'd just knock one back before continuing to work on my reading.  I get by with a little help from my caffeine.  She pointed over to where the spouses (spice? speese?) were sitting, and asked:  'Are you, er, with-a the spouse?'

'No, but my mom is.  I'm here waiting for her.'

'Oh, ok.  I make-a you one, moment, please.'  (I just love the way Italians speak English.)

She brought me my drink, wrinkled her brow, and said rather shyly, 'Er, may I ask-a... how old are you?"

I decided to use my Italian to make her more comfortable, and said "Sono sedici anni."  (Sedici being 16.)

"Oh ok, I was thinking you were, er, older!"  This is probably because she's seen me with the spouses (Spice?  Speeseee??)  because I take Italian with them and I am going to be attending Art and History lectures with them.  She smiled at me and said, 'You are very nice!'  and waved away my .50 euro.  I thanked her, she attended the next customer, I drank my (free!!) life-blood, and headed back to the library to wait for my mama.

I finished all of my reading for that day, and so I read my Kindle.  Mama got there, and we waited with a friend while our other friend who was going to drive us home got a tour around the college.

We came home, I had lunch, and at 5 pm I had my first real Rhetoric II online class, which was fun!  I'm really excited about that.  Today, in about an hour and 15 minutes, I have my first real Geometry online class!  I'm... relatively excited!  I mean, as excited as a bookworm like me could be about a math class.  But my teacher and the other kids are sweet.  But I'm pretty sure I'm the oldest one in the class, because I did pre-algebra, algebra I, and algebra II before geometry.

I think it'll be a good school year.  I feel it in my bones.

Or perhaps that's the copious amount of caffeine currently shooting through my bloodstream.  Could be.

Anyway, I'm also on a music kick right now.  I mean, it's not like I ever didn't enjoy it, but for some reason I can't take my headphones out of my ears right now.  It's actually my dad's iPod, because mine decided it doesn't like me anymore.

I understand.  I loved it... to its demise.  I think it's salvageable, but I don't really want too work on it right now.

Right now, I'm listening to Fernando Ortega.  I like his music because I've never been good at memorizing scripture, but he writes beautiful music and then sings exact scripture for the lyrics, so I can memorize it better that way.  Not to mention, it's entirely soothing and gorgeous.

I also like Foreigner.  Go figure.

I never was normal, you know, and I never claimed to be.

Friday, September 3, 2010

I do not take my country music lightly

Yes, it is in fact my second YouTube video of the day.

I have reasons, though!  You see, my life the past two days hasn't been really anything to write home about.  I've had my orientations for my online classes, done some homework, and learned about some cool stuff I get to do this year sight-seeing wise, because my dad's work is offering tours of some really neat places on the weekends. But I don't want to spoil all my future blogging by telling you about it now!

I wanted to share, though, this powerful video.  It's Carrie Underwood at the CMA's performing "Jesus Take the Wheel."  That may sound ordinary, but it's not.  At the end of the song, she transformed it into a big, powerful singing of the hymn "How Great Thou Art."  It gave me goosebumps.

I'm frustrated with ABC, because on television, they cut out the hymn part and cut to a video of "A day in the life of Taylor Swift."  Now, I love me some Taylor, but I find it absolutely infuriating that they cut out a hymn.  Anyone have a guess as to why?

Now watch!



Sound off in the comments:  What do you think about ABC's choice to cut the hymn?

And also, um, Carrie Underwood?  Girl's got pipes.